Making love

Today I was going through some old playlists just to see what was on them, and suddenly...

...I started crying! And I though, oh god why.

That was very strange, because I very seldom cry, and I wasn't even having a bad day, it was quite good actually.

And I wasn't even paying attention to the lyrics I was dong something else.

So I checked the song, and it was a song I hadn't heard since 2006 "making love" by Utada Hikaru.

And I remembered, how that song always used to make me cry every time I heard it.

So there was an in built mechanism in my subconscious that was automatically triggered by that song

I thought I was stronger than that

but i couldn't resist

the song had used painful memories

and it was super effective!